Dear Mum,
Our family unit had dinner with dad last night. We were sitting around and chatting afterwards, and the kids were asking dad to tell them some of my embarrassing stories. He got quiet and told them he didn't want to tell stories right now, but that got me thinking...Did some of our childhood stories and memories go with you?
Dad was always there for the important childhood experiences, and some of my favourite family moments...but I can't help but wonder if he knows about all of our trials and tribulations as we grew up...those lessons we learned in the regular day to day that helped mould us into the people we are today. Are they lost forever?
When I call dad for advice about how to handle a situation with the kids, and ask what you both did when I went through the same "phase", will he be able to tell me? It's scary to me that part of my life could remain unknown. That there are going to be things that he can't help me with, when I really need it.
I know that you two shared everything...it used to frustrate me as a teenager and young adult that when I came to you with whatever drama I was caught up in, dad would offer his two cents a few days later...He was always in the loop, even if he was busy at work or away.
I hope that he just wasn't ready to talk about those stories, rather than not knowing them at all. That would mean that he might never fully know who I am, though I know he will love me regardless.
Miss you so much,
Me
